With these artworks I wanted to explore the question what it means to be thrown into this existence. I am interested in childhood. Not in children per se, but in their rising intellectual and emotional concept of the world. Having had the most protected and positive environment a child could have myself, I still remember profound feelings of fear and uncomfortableness about my being brought into existence and being forced to function in a world that seemed frightening to me more than anything else.
I do also remember religious feelings. These feelings were at first distinctly different to my strictly catholic environment, but later started to merge into a confusing religiously emotional mixture full of excitement, agony and deception.
In my work, I would like to examine the mental space before such a violent taking possession of a child’s world. Stripping off all man-made religious inventions and ideologies, that will at their best spoil the child’s clear view on the world for life, I like to take a closer look at the intellectual and emotional gaze of the little being on the world: The disheartening helplessness, the bottomless joy, the dismantling insights, the burning fear, the immutable love and the courage to keep walking into an overpowering future.
all images resin and acrylic gel on inkjet-canvas
5 panels, each 8×32″, total ca. 32×50″